As was my routine, I glanced first toward the Cullens' table. A shiver of panic trembled in my stomach as I realized it was empty. With dwindling hope, my eyes scoured the rest of the cafeteria, hoping to find him alone, waiting for me. The place was nearly filled — Spanish had made us late — but there was no sign of Edward or any of his family. Desolation hit me with crippling strength.
如同例行公事一样，我第一眼便向卡伦家的桌子看去。当我意识到它是空的时，一阵恐惧的颤抖在我的胃里翻腾着。带着越来越渺茫的希望，我的眼睛搜索着自助餐厅的余下部分，希望能看见他独自坐着，等着我。到处都坐满了人——西班牙语课让我们来晚了——却没有任何爱德华或者他的某个家人的影子。一种无力的荒凉感袭击了我。

I shambled along behind Jessica, not bothering to pretend to listen anymore.
我蹒跚着走在杰西卡后面，不再费神假装在听她说话了。

We were late enough that everyone was already at our table. I avoided the empty chair next to Mike in favor of one by Angela. I vaguely noticed that Mike held the chair out politely for Jessica, and that her face lit up in response.
我们来得太晚了，我们桌子上的人几乎都到齐了。我避开迈克旁边的那张空椅子，更青睐安吉拉旁边那张。我隐约留意到迈克彬彬有礼地为杰西卡拉开椅子，她的脸立刻容光焕发。

Angela asked a few quiet questions about the Macbeth paper, which I answered as naturally as I could while spiraling downward in misery. She, too, invited me to go with them tonight, and I agreed now, grasping at anything to distract myself.
安吉拉安静地问了几个关于那篇《麦克白》的论文的问题，我尽可能答得正常些，尽管此时我正盘旋着落入绝望的深渊。她也邀请我今晚和她们一起去，而我立刻答应了，想要抓住任何能让我分心的事。

I realized I'd been holding on to a last shred of hope when I entered Biology, saw his empty seat, and felt a new wave of disappointment.
当我走进生物教室的时候，我意识到自己怀着最后一线希望。但在看到他空空的座位以后，新一轮的失望向我涌来。

The rest of the day passed slowly, dismally. In Gym, we had a lecture on the rules of badminton, the next torture they had lined up for me. But at least it meant I got to sit and listen instead of stumbling around on the court. The best part was the coach didn't finish, so I got another day off tomorrow. Never mind that the day after they would arm me with a racket before unleashing me on the rest of the class.
这一天剩下的时间过得漫长又沉默。体育课上，我们要听羽毛球的规则讲演，这是排着队等着我的又一次煎熬。但至少，这意味着我可以坐下来听课，而不是在庭院里到处被绊到。最好的部分是教练没能讲完，所以明天我又将逃过一劫。在我从余下的课里解放出来以前，我根本不去在乎后天他们就要让我拿上球拍了。

斯蒂芬妮·梅尔

2003年之前，她只是一位默默无闻的家庭主妇

斯蒂芬妮·梅尔，这位炙手可热的魔幻畅销书“女王”，原来却是一位默默无闻的家庭主妇。梅尔1973年12月出生于美国康涅狄格州的哈特伍德，在亚利桑那州的凤凰城的一个大家庭长大。她兄妹6人，有趣的是，在“暮光之城”系列小说里面，她为角色“借用”了她兄弟姐妹的名字。后来，梅尔入读犹他州的著名教会大学“杨百翰大学”，主修的是英国文学。实际上，梅尔的爱情和婚姻也像她的成长，非常顺利。在家乡亚利桑那，她认识了绰号“潘秋”的克里斯滕森。他们于1994年结婚。婚后的生活一如既往地平静，他们育有3个儿子：盖波、西斯和艾利。像大部分美国人一样，梅尔在生活和创作上有着严格的道德指标，反对吸毒，反对传媒中的性和暴力，她甚至没有看过R级影片。