I started choosing only job that i'm passionate about and from which I knew I could bring meaningful experiences.
This thoroughly confused everyone around me: agents, producers and audiences alike.
I made Cotaya's Ghost, a foreign independent film and studied history, visiting the Prada every day for four months as I read about goya and the Spanish Inquisition.
I made V for Vendetta, studio action movie for which I learned everything I could about freedom fighters whom otherwise maybe call terrorists.
From Menachen Begin to Weather Underground.
从Menachen Begin到Weather Underground组织。
I made Your Highness a pothead comedy with Danny McBride and laughed for three months straight.
I was able to own my meaning and not have it be determined by box office receipts or prestige.
By the time I got making BlackSwan, the experience was entirely my own.
I felt immune to the worst things anyone could say or write about me, and to whether the audience felt like to see my movie or not.
It was instructive for me to see for ballet dancers, once your technique gets to a certain level, the only thing that separates you from others is your quirks or even flaws.
One ballerina was famous for how she turned slightly off balanced.
You can never be the best technically, someone will always have a higher jump or a more beautiful line.
The only thing you can be the best at is developing your own self.
Authoring your own experience was very much what Black Swan itself was about.
I worked Darren Aronofsky, the film's director who changed my last line in the movie to It was perfect.
Because my character Nina is only artistically successful when she finds perfection and pleasure for herself, not when she's trying to be perfect in the eyes of others.
So when Black Swan successful financially and I began receiving accolades.
I felt honored and grateful to have connected with people.
But the true core of my meaning I had already established.
And I need it to be independent of people's reactions to me.
People told me the Black Swan was an artistic risk, a scary challenge to try to portray a professional ballet dancer.
But it didn't feel like courage or daring that drove me to it.
I was so oblivious to my own limit that I did things I was woefully unprepared to do.
1. be passionate about 热衷于某事
例句：You can't be passionate about everything.
2.be able to do 能够做
例句：What should the system be able to do?
3.seperate from 把……分开
例句：The memory exist in our cell, in our body, and it can't seperate from your physical. It means crush and burn if you want to destroy it.
4. be independent of 不依赖…；不受…支配；独立于…之外
例句：You see it doesn't have to be torrid it can be a phase after that or it can be independent of that. People can be in love without ever having falling in love.