But the world of Keynes and Forster, the parties and comings and goings of Bloomsbury people, lay far above Alan's head.

但是凯恩斯和福斯特，布鲁斯伯里派，对艾伦来说，却是高高在上的。

There was a glossiness about King's, whose greatest strength lay in the arts, and drama in particular, in which he had no share.

国王学院的强项在于艺术，特别是戏剧，但这对艾伦来说，却将它拒之门外。

He would have been too easily deterred and frightened by the more theatrical elements in expressing his homosexuality.

当艾伦表演着最戏剧的元素──同性恋时，他受到了太多的威慑和恐吓。

If at Sherborne his sexuality was described in terms of 'filth' and 'scandal', he now also had to come to terms with that other kind of labelling that the world found so important: that of the pansy, an affront and traitor to masculine supremacy.

如果说，在舍尔伯尼，他的性取向被打上下流和肮脏的标签，那么现在，他同样要忍受一个外界觉得很重要的标签──对雄性权利的背叛。

He did not find a place in this compartment; nor did the King's aesthete set, flourishing in its protected corner, reach out to a shy mathematician.

在这里，他找不到立足之地，在国王学院，没有一个合适的角落，能容纳这位腼腆的数学家。

As in so many ways, Alan was the prisoner of his own self-sufficiency.

在很多方面，艾伦就像个作茧自缚的囚徒，国王学院能做的，

King's could only protect him while he worked out the problems for himself.

只是在他自己想要走出来的时候，对他给予保护。

It was the same with regard to religious belief, for while agnosticism was all but de rigueur in King's, he was not the person to follow a trend, only to be stimulated and liberated by the freedom to ask hitherto forbidden questions.

在宗教信仰上也是一样，当国王学院将不可知论奉为一切时，他拒绝跟随潮流，他只是对触及禁忌的自由而感到刺激。

In developing his intellectual life, he did not form the social connections that a less shy person could have made.

他在发展他的学术生涯方面，并未形成一个正常人的社会关系，他不像他的大部分朋友，

Unlike most of his close acquaintances, he was a member neither of the 'Ten Club' nor of the Massinger Society – two King's undergraduate societies of which the first read plays and the other discussed far into the night, over mugs of cocoa, papers on culture and moral philosophy.

他既不是第十社也不是麦森格社的成员――这是两个国王学院学生社团，他们一起读剧本，谈论到深夜，喝着可可饮料，探讨关于文化和道德哲学的论文。