“Two thou--” he began. His lower lip was quivering a little. Later, when he pulled away from the curb, he honked twice and waved. I waved back. I never saw him again.
I returned to the hotel room and found Sohrab lying on the bed, curled up in a big C. His eyes were closed but I couldn’t tell if he was sleeping. He had shut off the television. I sat on my bed and grimaced with pain, wiped the cool sweat off my brow. I wondered how much longer it would hurt to get up, sit down, roll over in bed. I wondered when I’d be able to eat solid food. I wondered what I’d do with the wounded little boy lying on the bed, though a part of me already knew.
There was a carafe of water on the dresser. I poured a glass and took two of Armand’s pain pills. The water was warm and bitter. I pulled the curtains, eased myself back on the bed, and lay down. I thought my chest would rip open. When the pain dropped a notch and I could breathe again, I pulled the blanket to my chest and waited for Armand’s pills to work.
WHEN I WOKE UP, the room was darker. The slice of sky peeking between the curtains was the purple of twilight turning into night. The sheets were soaked and my head pounded. I’d been dreaming again, but I couldn’t remember what it had been about. My heart gave a sick lurch when I looked to Sohrab’s bed and found it empty I called his name. The sound of my voice startled me. It was disorienting, sitting in a dark hotel room, thousands of miles from home, my body broken, calling the name of a boy I’d only met a few days ago. I called his name again and heard nothing. I struggled out of bed, checked the bathroom, looked in the narrow hallway outside the room. He was gone.
I locked the door and hobbled to the manager’s office in the lobby, one hand clutching the rail along the walkway for support. There was a fake, dusty palm tree in the corner of the lobby and flying pink flamingos on the wallpaper. I found the hotel manager reading a newspaper behind the Formica-topped check-in counter. I described Sohrab to him, asked if he’d seen him. He put down his paper and took off his reading glasses. He had greasy hair and a square-shaped little mustache speckled with gray. He smelled vaguely of some tropical fruit I couldn’t quite recognize.
“Boys, they like to run around,” he said, sighing. “I have three of them. All day they are running around, troubling their mother.” He fanned his face with the newspaper, staring at my jaws.
“I don’t think he’s out running around,” I said. “And we’re not from here. I’m afraid he might get lost.”He bobbed his head from side to side. “Then you should have kept an eye on the boy, mister.”
“I know,” I said. “But I fell asleep and when I woke up, he was gone.”
“Boys must be tended to, you know.”
“Yes,” I said, my pulse quickening. How could he be so oblivious to my apprehension? He shifted the newspaper to his other hand, resumed the fanning. “They want bicycles now”
“Who?”
“My boys,” he said. “They’re saying, ‘Daddy, Daddy, please buy us bicycles and we’ll not trouble you. Please, Daddy!” He gave a short laugh through his nose. “Bicycles. Their mother will kill me, I swear to you.”
I imagined Sohrab lying in a ditch. Or in the trunk of some car, bound and gagged. I didn’t want his blood on my hands. Not his too. “Please...” I said. I squinted. Read his name tag on the lapel of his short-sleeve blue cotton shirt. “Mr. Fayyaz, have you seen him?”
“The boy?”
“两干……”他说，下唇稍微有点颤抖。稍后，他驶离停车道的时候，揿了两下喇叭，摇摇手。我也朝他招手。再也没有见到他。
我回到旅馆房间，发现索拉博躺在床上，身子弯成弓形。他双眼合上，但我不知道他是不是睡着了。他关掉了电视。我坐在床上，痛得龇牙咧嘴，抹去额头上的冷汗。我在想，要过多久，起身、坐下、在床上翻身才不会发痛呢？我在想，什么时候才能吃固体食物呢？我在想，我该拿这个躺在床上的受伤的小男孩怎么办？不过我心里已经有了想法。
柜台上有个饮水机。我倒了一玻璃杯水，吞下两片阿曼德的药丸。水是温的，带有苦味。我拉上窗帘，慢慢躺在床上。我觉得自己的胸膛会裂开。等到痛楚稍减、我又能呼吸的时候，我拉过毛毯盖在身上，等着阿曼德的药丸生效。
醒来之后，房间变黑了。窗帘之间露出一线天光，那是即将转入黑夜的紫色斜晖。汗水浸透被褥，我脑袋昏重。我又做梦了，但忘记梦到什么。我望向索拉博的床，发现它是空的，心里一沉。我叫他的名字，发出的嗓音吓了自己一跳。那真是茫然失措，坐在阴暗的旅馆房间，离家万里，身体伤痕累累，呼唤着一个几天前才遇到的男孩的名字。我又喊了他的名字，没听到回答。我挣扎着起床，查看卫生间，朝外面那条狭窄的走廊望去。他不见了。
我锁上房门，一只手扶在走廊的栏杆上，跌跌撞撞走到大堂的经理办公室。大堂的角落有株满是尘灰的假棕榈树，粉红的火烈鸟在壁纸上飞舞。我在塑料贴面的登记柜台后面，找到正在看报纸的经理。我向他描绘索拉博的样子，问他有没有见到过。他放下报纸，摘掉老花镜。他的头发油腻，整齐的小胡子有些灰白，身上依稀有种我叫不上名字的热带水果味道。
“男孩嘛，他们总喜欢出去玩。”他叹气说，“我有三个男孩，他们整天都跑得不见踪影，给他们母亲惹麻烦。”他用报纸扇风，看着我的下巴。?
“我认为他不是出去玩，”我说，“我们不是本地人，我担心他会迷路。”他摇摇头：“你应该看好那个男孩，先生。”
“我知道，”我说，“但我睡着了，醒来他已经不见了。”
“男孩应该多加关心的，你知道。”
“是的。”我说，血气上涌。他怎么可以对我的焦急如此无动于衷？他把报纸交在另外一只手上，继续扇风，“他们现在想要自行车。”
“谁？”
“我的孩子。”他说，“他们总在说：”爸爸，爸爸，请给我们买自行车，我们不会给你带来麻烦。求求你，爸爸。”笑一声，自行车。他们的母亲会杀了我，我敢向你保证。”
我想像着索拉博横尸街头，或者在某辆轿车的后厢里面，手脚被绑，嘴巴被塞住。我不想他死在我手里，不想他也因我而死。“麻烦你……”我说，皱起眉头，看见他那件短袖蓝色棉衬衫翻领上的商标，“费亚兹先生，你见过他吗？”
“那个男孩？”