残忍而美丽的情谊:The Kite Runner 追风筝的人(85)
日期:2014-12-08 11:28

(单词翻译:单击)

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I shifted on my feet, cleared my throat. “I’ll go now. Sorry to have disturbed you.”
“Nay, you didn’t,” she said.
“Oh. Good.” I tipped my head and gave her a half smile. “I’ll go now.” Hadn’t I already said that? “Khoda h?fez.”
“Khoda h?fez.”
I began to walk. Stopped and turned. I said it before I had a chance to lose my nerve: “Can I ask what you’re reading?”
She blinked.
I held my breath. Suddenly, I felt the collective eyes of the flea market Afghans shift to us. I imagined a hush falling. Lips stop ping in midsentence. Heads turning. Eyes narrowing with keen interest.
What was this?
Up to that point, our encounter could have been interpreted as a respectful inquiry, one man asking for the whereabouts of another man. But I’d asked her a question and if she answered, we’d be... well, we’d be chatting. Me a mojarad, a single young man, and she an unwed young woman. One with a history, no less. This was teetering dangerously on the verge of gossip material, and the best kind of it. Poison tongues would flap. And she would bear the brunt of that poison, not me--I was fully aware of the Afghan double standard that favored my gender. Not Did you see him chatting with her? but Wooooy! Did you see how she wouldn’t let him go? What a lochak!
By Afghan standards, my question had been bold. With it, I had bared myself, and left little doubt as to my interest in her. But I was a man, and all I had risked was a bruised ego. Bruises healed. Reputations did not. Would she take my dare?
She turned the book so the cover faced me. Wuthering Heights. “Have you read it?” she said.
I nodded. I could feel the pulsating beat of my heart behind my eyes. “It’s a sad story.”
“Sad stories make good books,” she said.
“They do.”
“I heard you write.”
How did she know? I wondered if her father had told her, maybe she had asked him. I immediately dismissed both scenarios as absurd. Fathers and sons could talk freely about women. But no Afghan girl--no decent and mohtaram Afghan girl, at least--queried her father about a young man. And no father, especially a Pashtun with nang and namoos, would discuss a mojarad with his daughter, not unless the fellow in question was a khastegar, a suitor, who had done the honorable thing and sent his father to knock on the door.
Incredibly, I heard myself say, “Would you like to read one of my stories?”
“I would like that,” she said. I sensed an unease in her now, saw it in the way her eyes began to flick side to side. Maybe checking for the general. I wondered what he would say if he found me speaking for such an inappropriate length of time with his daughter.
“Maybe I’ll bring you one someday,” I said. I was about to say more when the woman I’d seen on occasion with Soraya came walking up the aisle. She was carrying a plastic bag full of fruit. When she saw us, her eyes bounced from Soraya to me and back. She smiled.
“Amir jan, good to see you,” she said, unloading the bag on the tablecloth. Her brow glistened with a sheen of sweat. Her red hair, coiffed like a helmet, glittered in the sunlight--I could see bits of her scalp where the hair had thinned. She had small green eyes buried in a cabbage-round face, capped teeth, and little fingers like sausages. A golden Allah rested on her chest, the chain burrowed under the skin tags and folds of her neck. “I am Jamila, Soraya jan’s mother.”
“Salaam, Khala jan,” I said, embarrassed, as I often was around Afghans, that she knew me and I had no idea who she was.
“How is your father?” she said.
“He’s well, thank you.”
我挪了挪脚,清清喉咙,“我要走了,很抱歉打扰到你。”
“没有,你没有。”她说。
“哦,那就好。”我点点头,给她一个勉强的微笑。“我要走了。”好像我已经说过了吧?“再见。”
“再见。”
我举步离开。停下,转身。趁着勇气还没有消失,我赶忙说:“我可以知道你在看什么书吗?”
她眨眨眼。
我屏住呼吸。刹那间,我觉得跳蚤市场里面所有的眼睛都朝我们看来。我猜想四周似乎突然寂静下来,话说到一半戛然而止。人们转过头,饶有兴致地眯起眼睛。
这是怎么回事?
直到那时,我们的邂逅可以解释成礼节性的问候,一个男人问起另外一个男人。但我问了她问题,如果她回答,我们将会……这么说吧,我们将会聊天。我,一个单身的青年男子,而她是个未婚的少女。她有过一段历史,这就够了。我们正徘徊在风言风语的危险边缘,毒舌会说长道短,而承受流言毒害的将会是她,不是我——我十分清楚阿富汗人的双重标准,身为男性,我占尽便宜。不是“你没见到他找她聊天吗?”而是“哇,你没看到她舍不得他离开吗?多么不知道廉耻啊!”
按照阿富汗人的标准,我的问题很唐突。问出这句话,意味着我无所遮掩,对她的兴趣再也毋庸置疑。但我是个男人,我所冒的风险,顶多是尊严受伤罢了,受伤了会痊愈,可是名誉毁了不再有清白。她会接受我的挑战吗?
她翻过书,让封面对着我。《呼啸山庄》。“你看过吗?”她说。
我点点头。我感到自己的心怦怦跳。“那是个悲伤的故事。”
“好书总是跟悲伤的故事有关。”她说。
“确实这样。”
“听说你写作?”
她怎么知道?我寻思是不是她父亲说的,也许她曾问过他。我立即打消了这两个荒谬的念头。父亲跟儿子可以随心所欲地谈论妇女。但不会有阿富汗女子——至少是有教养的阿富汗淑女——向她父亲问起青年男子。而且,没有父亲,特别是一个有名誉和尊严的普什图男人,会跟自己的女儿谈论未婚少男,除非这个家伙是求爱者,已经做足体面的礼节,请他父亲前来提亲。
难以置信的是,我听见自己说:“你愿意看看我写的故事吗?”
“我愿意。”她说。现在我从她的神情感觉她有些不安,她的眼睛开始东瞟西看,也许是看看将军来了没有。我怀疑,要是让他看到我跟她女儿交谈了这么久,他会有什么反应呢?
“也许改天我会带给你,”我说。我还想说些什么,那个我曾见到跟索拉雅在一起的女人走进过道。她提着塑料袋,里面装满水果。她看到我们,滴溜溜的眼珠看着我和索拉雅,微笑起来。
“亲爱的阿米尔,见到你真高兴。”她说,把袋子放在桌布上。她的额头泛出丝丝汗珠,一头红发看上去像头盔,在阳光下闪闪发亮——在她头发稀疏的地方露出点点头皮。她有双绿色的小眼睛,埋藏在那圆得像卷心菜的脸蛋上,牙齿镶金,短短的手指活像香肠。她胸前挂着一尊金色的安拉,链子在她皮肤的褶皱和脖子的肥肉间忽隐忽现。“我叫雅米拉,亲爱的索拉雅的妈妈。”
“你好,亲爱的阿姨。”我说,有些尴尬,我经常身处阿富汗人之间,他们认得我是什么人,我却不知道对方姓甚名谁。
“你爸爸还好吗?”她说。
“他很好,谢谢。”

作品周边

内容简介
12岁的阿富汗富家少爷阿米尔与仆人哈桑情同手足。然而,在一场风筝比赛后,发生了一件悲惨不堪的事,阿米尔为自己的懦弱感到自责和痛苦,逼走了哈桑,不久,自己也跟随父亲逃往美国。

成年后的阿米尔始终无法原谅自己当年对哈桑的背叛。为了赎罪,阿米尔再度踏上暌违二十多年的故乡,希望能为不幸的好友尽最后一点心力,却发现一个惊天谎言,儿时的噩梦再度重演,阿米尔该如何抉择?

故事如此残忍而又美丽,作者以温暖细腻的笔法勾勒人性的本质与救赎,读来令人荡气回肠。

作者简介
卡勒德·胡赛尼(Khaled Hosseini),1965年生于阿富汗喀布尔市,后随父亲迁往美国。胡赛尼毕业于加州大学圣地亚哥医学系,现居加州。“立志拂去蒙在阿富汗普通民众面孔的尘灰,将背后灵魂的悸动展示给世人。”著有小说《追风筝的人》(The Kite Runner,2003)、《灿烂千阳》(A Thousand Splendid Suns,2007)、《群山回唱》(And the Mountains Echoed,2013)。作品全球销量超过4000万册。2006年,因其作品巨大的国际影响力,胡赛尼获得联合国人道主义奖,并受邀担任联合国难民署亲善大使。
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对友谊最大的误解,就是认为它是万能的(来自豆瓣网友:谢长留)
  我时常幻想自己是来自未来的,这样,有一天我面对未来某一时刻的突然变化,就会更从容,面对陈年往事也会更慷慨。但,我更适合平庸,如寻常人一样琐碎繁杂的生活,对时间的细枝末节斤斤计较。
  
  既然无法预知未来,那么人更多的开始依赖回忆,甚至靠那些零星琐碎的回忆支撑往后的日子,有些回忆很美好,有些回忆很心酸,有些回忆让人长大,有些回忆让人显得很无知,有些回忆慢慢泛黄,有些回忆仿佛就在昨天。有些故事也总是从儿时的回忆展开。
  
  我对阿富汗以及周边连年征战的国家和他们的历史毫无兴趣,对我而言,那里的人民是可怜的,那里的政府是可悲的,所以当《追风筝的人》这个故事一点一点展现在我面前的时候,我并没准备好接受一个平静的,也曾春暖花开,羊肉串香飘整条街的画面,更没想到那里的孩子也可以无忧无虑的追逐风筝。
  
  所以当身为少爷的阿米尔和他的仆人哈桑情同手足的画面一出现,所有读者不禁感叹,少年时的友谊是那么充满力量,干净而持久的。他们总是并肩而行,每当阿米尔被人欺负的时候,哈桑总是义无反顾的站出来保护,很多人说这是哈桑天生的奴性,这种观点我不赞同,我看见他们之间分明有一道友谊的光芒在闪耀。
  
  当阿米尔问哈桑为什么确定自己一定会知道被切断绳线的风筝的掉落地的时候,哈桑肯定的对阿米尔说,我就是知道,然后反问,我什么时候骗过你。阿米尔轻声说,我怎么知道有没有骗过我。哈桑发誓,为了你,我宁可啃烂泥。阿米尔进一步确定,你真的会为我啃烂泥?哈桑坚定的说,我肯定,然后又说,但是你又怎么能忍心让我啃烂泥。所以读者心中所向往的也就是我们每个人心中那个潮湿的童年印象,总是和自己最亲密的伙伴,席地而坐,互相盟誓,发誓为对方,甘愿上刀山下火海。就如同哈桑洋溢着笑脸对阿米尔说的那样:为你,千千万万遍。
  
  然而事实上却是这样的:他是主人,他是仆人;他是普什图,他是哈扎拉;他是逊尼派,他是什叶派,从他们出生的那一刻起,他们的命运就被这些他们所不能理解的标签所分隔开来,尽管他们是亲密无间的朋友,尽管他们事实上拥有同一位父亲。无论是平凡的阿米尔和哈桑,还是高高在上的查希尔国王或者卡尔扎伊,都不得不接受社会为他们预定的座位——阿米尔不再是阿米尔,哈桑也不再是哈桑,他们必须戴上社会分给他们的面具。
  
  哈桑总是说“为你,千千万万遍”,而生性懦弱的阿米尔却选择沉默冷酷的逃避,这样的悲剧性结果并不单单是个性差异所造成的,在这些年少无知的孩子的潜意识里早已被灌输了相应于自身社会地位的“应该”与“不应该”,一个哈扎拉仆人理应为主人尽忠,而高贵的普什图少爷不值得为一个卑贱的哈扎拉仆人冒任何风险。
  
  “阿米尔和哈桑,喀布尔的统治者”,这样的誓言只能是石榴树下的童话,“王子与贫儿”不可能成为兄弟,因为他们命中注定不平等。包括二十年后,阿米尔重返阿富汗的自我救赎行为,也只不过是在获知自己与哈桑的同父异母兄弟关系之后对身世的无奈认可,也就是说,他仍然没有证明自己已经找到了“重新成为好人的路”。
  
  我们少年的时候,总是意气风发,三五结伴,促膝长谈。那是在我们其乐融融的环境中构建的虚拟场景,属于物理学讲究的理想状态,然而在残酷的现实面前,在微弱的友谊遇到挑战的时刻,只要有一方露出破绽,友谊的桥梁必然坍塌。
  
  于是当阿米尔在看到哈桑被大一些的孩子欺负甚至猥亵的时候,他选择沉默和逃避;与此同时,哈桑却为了阿米尔的风筝坚定不动摇的和对手较量,对手残忍的揭示阿米尔和哈桑之间的主仆关系,哈桑大声反驳说两个人是朋友。躲在角落里不敢出现的阿米尔听到这句话不但没有一点激励也没有丝毫感动,他心底里的怯懦终于将他的灵魂吞噬,于是悲剧发生。
  
  这就是我们对友谊最大的误解,认为它是万能的。
  
  即使是存在这样的问题,《追风筝的人》也还是一本出色的小说。主和仆、贵族和贱民、朋友和兄弟,历史和现实,种种转变都被刻画得生动而细腻。放在历史的宏大背景下,更洞见人生和人性的复杂。
  
  友谊和爱。
  
  是在困难之中由弱变强的柔韧派还是在权衡利弊之中土崩瓦解的懦弱派。
  
  谁敢真的站出来举起右手发誓,我从来没有辜负过任何一段纯粹的友谊,谁敢真的抬头挺胸说自己对朋友忠心不二。
  
  我们总是太自信,对友谊误解,对自己的爱误解,对不可能的事信以为真。

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