残忍而美丽的情谊:The Kite Runner 追风筝的人(183)
日期:2015-05-06 10:18

(单词翻译:单击)

I dragged the hospital gown sleeve across my eyes. I folded the letter and put it under my mattress.Amir, the socially legitimate half, the half that represented the riches he had inherited and the sin-with-impunity privileges that came with them. Maybe that was why Baba and I had been on such better terms in the U.S., I wondered. Selling junk for petty cash, our menial jobs, our grimy apartment--the American version of a hut; maybe in America, when Baba looked at me, he saw a little bit of Hassan.Your father, like you, was a tortured soul, Rahim Khan had written. Maybe so. We had both sinned and betrayed. But Baba had found a way to create good out of his remorse. What had I done, other than take my guilt out on the very same people I had betrayed, and then try to forget it all? What had I done, other than become an insomniac?
What had I ever done to right things?
When the nurse--not Aisha but a red-haired woman whose name escapes me--walked in with a syringe in hand and asked me if I needed a morphine injection, I said yes.THEY REMOVED THE CHEST TUBE early the next morning, and Armand gave the staff the go-ahead to let me sip apple juice. I asked Aisha for a mirror when she placed the cup of juice on the dresser next to my bed. She lifted her bifocals to her forehead as she pulled the curtain open and let the morning sun flood the room. “Remember, now,” she said over her shoulder, “it will look better in a few days. My son-in-law was in a moped accident last year. His handsome face was dragged on the asphalt and became purple like an eggplant. Now he is beautiful again, like a Hollywood movie star.”Despite her reassurances, looking in the mirror and seeing the thing that insisted it was my face left me a little breathless. It looked like someone had stuck an air pump nozzle under my skin and had pumped away. My eyes were puffy and blue. The worst of it was my mouth, a grotesque blob of purple and red, all bruise and stitches. I tried to smile and a bolt of pain ripped through my lips. I wouldn’t be doing that for a while. There were stitchesacross my left cheek, just under the chin, on the forehead just below the hairline.The old guy with the leg cast said something in Urdu. I gave him a shrug and shook my head. He pointed to his face, patted it, and grinned a wide, toothless grin. “Very good,” he said in English. “Ins hallah.”“Thank you,” I whispered.Farid and Sohrab came in just as I put the mirror away. Sohrab took his seat on the stool, rested his head on the bed’s side rail.
“You know, the sooner we get you out of here the better,” Farid said.
“Dr. Faruqi says--”-
“I don’t mean the hospital. I mean Peshawar.”
“Why?”
我拉起病服的袖子,抹抹眼睛,把信折好,放在我的褥子下面。阿米尔,你是社会承认的一半,他所继承的财富,以及随之而来的犯罪免受刑罚的特权,统统都会再赠给你。也许正是因为这样,我和爸爸在美国才能相处得那么好,我想。为了一点蝇头小利贩售旧货,我们卑微的工作,我们污秽的公寓——美国式的茅舍;也许在美国,当爸爸看到我,他也看到了哈桑的一部分。你父亲跟你一样,也是个痛苦的人。拉辛汗这样写道。也许是吧,我们都曾犯下罪行,出卖别人。可是爸爸找到一条将负疚变成善行的路。而我所做的,除了将罪行发泄在那个被我背叛的人身上,然后试图全都忘掉之外,我还做过什么?除了让自己夜不能寐之外,我还做过什么?
我又何曾做过什么正确的事呢?
当护士——不是艾莎,而是一个我想不起名字的红发女子——拿着针筒走进来,问我要不要打一针吗啡,我说好。次日清早,他们拿掉我的胸管,阿曼德让工作人员准备给我喝些苹果汁。艾莎在我床头的柜子上放下一杯果汁,我问她要一面镜子。她把眼镜举在额头上,拉开窗帘,让朝晖射进房间。她转过头说:“过几天会好看一些。去年我女婿骑摩托出了车祸,他那张英俊的脸摔在柏油路上,青肿得像个茄子。现在他又是那么英俊了,像个罗丽坞的电影明星。”尽管她一再安慰,望向镜子,看到它里面那个硬要说是我的脸的东西,我还是差点窒息。看上去好像有人在我脸皮下面插了根气管,然后朝里面泵气。我双眼青肿。最糟糕的是我的嘴,那一大块青紫红肿的东西,满是淤血和缝线。我试图微笑,嘴唇掠过一阵痛楚。看来我很长时间不能这么做了。我左边脸颊也缝着线,就在颧骨下面,额头上的缝口在发际线之下。脚上打石膏那个老家伙用乌尔都语说了几句。我朝他耸耸肩,摇摇头。他指着自己的脸,轻轻拍打,嘴巴咧得大大的,露出没有牙齿的笑容。“很好,”他用英语说,“安拉保佑。”“谢谢你。”我低声说。我刚把镜子放下,法里德和索拉博就进来了。索拉博坐在凳子上,头倚着病床的护栏。
“你知道吗,我们越快让你离开这里越好。”
“法鲁奇大夫说……”
“我不是说出院,我是说离开白沙瓦。”
“为什么?”
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