I explained to the medicine man that I've been having the same horrible nightmare since childhood, namely that there is a man with a knife standing next to my bed. This nightmare is so vivid, the man is so real, that it sometimes makes me scream out in fear. It leaves my heart pounding every time (and has never been fun for those who share my bed, either). I've been having this nightmare every few weeks for as long as I can remember.

我跟药师说明自己从小以来所做的同一个噩梦：一名男人持刀站在我的床边。这噩梦十分鲜明，男人也十分真实，有时令我恐惧得尖叫出来。每回我的心都怦怦跳（这对跟我同床的人来说可不好玩）。就我记忆所及，每隔几个礼拜就会做一次这个噩梦。

I told this to Ketut, and he told me I had been misunderstanding the vision for years. The man with the knife in my bedroom is not an enemy; he's just one of my four brothers. He's the spirit brother who represents strength. He's not there to attack me, but to guard me while I sleep. I'm probably waking up because I'm sensing the commotion of my spirit brother fighting away some demon who might be trying to hurt me. It is not a knife my brother is carrying, but a kris—a small, powerful dagger. I don't have to be afraid. I can go back to sleep, knowing I am protected.

我把这件事告诉赖爷，他跟我说，我对这影像误解多年。持刀站在卧室的男人不是敌人；他只是我的兄弟。他是代表力量的兄弟。他并非想攻击我，而是在我睡觉时守护我。我之所以醒过来，可能因为感受到我的兄弟击退打算伤害我的恶魔时所引发的骚乱。我的兄弟拿的不是刀，而是"kris"——有力的匕首。我用不着恐惧。我可以回去睡觉，因为知道自己受到保护。

"You lucky," Ketut said. "Lucky you can see him. Sometimes I see my brothers in meditation, but very rare for regular person to see like this. I think you have big spiritual power. I hope maybe someday you become medicine woman."

"你是幸运儿，"他说，"你很幸运能够看见他。有时我在禅坐时会看见我的兄弟，但正常人很罕见。我想你有很强大的灵力。我希望哪天你能成为药师。"

"OK," I said, laughing, "but only if I can have my own TV series."

"好吧，"我笑着说，"只要还能看我的电视剧就好。"

He laughed with me, not getting the joke, of course, but loving the idea that people make jokes. Ketut then instructed me that whenever I speak to my four spirit brothers, I must tell them who I am, so they can recognize me. I must use the secret nickname they have for me. I must say, "I am Lagoh Prano."

他跟着我笑，当然不是因为听得懂玩笑，而是喜欢人们开玩笑。赖爷教导我，每当和我的四兄弟说话，我必须跟他们说我是谁，才好让他们认出我来。我必须使用他们为我取的昵称。我得说："我是'LagohPrano'。"

Lagoh Prano means "Happy Body."

"LagohPrano"的意思是"快乐身躯"。

I rode my bicycle back home, pushing my happy body up the hills toward my house in the late afternoon sun. On my way through the forest, a big male monkey dropped out of a tree right in front of me and bared his fangs at me. I didn't even flinch. I said, "Back off, Jack—I got four brothers protecting my ass," and I just rode right on by him. Eat, Pray, Love

我骑着单车回家，在傍晚的夕阳下，将自己的快乐身躯推往山上的家。在我穿越树林的路上，一只大公猴从树上落到我面前，朝我露出牙齿。我根本没打算退缩。我说："杰克，闪一边去——老娘有四兄弟保护。"于是我就从它旁边骑了过去。