I'm all tearful now, but trying not to show it. The depth of my relief—it's hard to explain. It takes even me by surprise. It's like this—it's like I was in a car accident, and my car went over a bridge and sank to the bottom of a river and I'd somehow managed to free myself from the sunken car by swimming through an open window and then I'd been frog-kicking and struggling to swim all the way up to the daylight through the cold, green water and I was almost out of oxygen and the arteries were bursting out of my neck and my cheeks were puffed with my last breath and then—GASP!—I broke through to the surface and took in huge gulps of air. And I survived. That gasp, that breaking through—this is what it feels like when I hear the Indonesian medicine man say, "You came back!" My relief is exactly that big.
现在我泪眼汪汪，却极力不表现出来。我内心的解脱难以言喻，甚至连我自己也觉得讶异。就好似我出了车祸，车子掉下桥去，沉到河底，我从沉下的车子里打开窗户游出来而脱困，而后踢着蛙式，竭力一路通过寒冷绿色的河水游向天光，我几乎用光氧气，动脉爆出脖子，脸颊鼓涨着最后一口气，而后——猛吸口气——我穿越水面，吸入大口大口空气。我活下来了。吸口气脱困而出——这正是我听印尼药师说“你回来了！”时的感觉。我正是如此松了一口气。

I can't believe it worked.
我真不敢相信奏效了。

"Yes, I came back," I say. "Of course I came back."
“是的，我回来了，”我说，

"I so happy!" he says. We're holding hands and he's wildly excited now. "I do not remember you at first! So long ago we meet! You look different now! So different from two years! Last time, you very sad-looking woman. Now—so happy! Like different person!"
“我当然回来了。”“我真高兴！”他说。我们双手交握，现在他兴奋无比。“我一开始记不得你！我们见面是很久以前的事。你现在看起来不一样！跟两年前完全不一样！上次你是模样悲伤的女人。现在——这么快乐！脱胎换骨！”

The idea of this—the idea of a person looking so different after a mere two years have passed—seems to incite in him a shiver of giggles.
一个人在两年时间内脱胎换骨这个想法，似乎在他心中兴起一阵笑声。

I give up trying to hide my tearfulness and just let it all spill over. "Yes, Ketut. I was very sad before. But life is better now."
我不再隐藏自己的汪汪泪水，让眼泪倾注而出。“是的，赖爷。从前我很悲伤。但现在过得好多了。”

"Last time you in bad divorce. No good." "No good," I confirm.
“上回你经历很糟的离婚。”“很糟。”我予以认可。

"Last time you have too much worry, too much sorrow. Last time, you look like sad old woman. Now you look like young girl. Last time you ugly! Now you pretty!"
“上回你有太多忧愁，太多哀伤。上回你看起来像老女人，现在看起来像年轻姑娘。上回你不好看！现在很美！”