Now the biggest lie was money plus recognition is equal to happiness, is equal to success.
So, let me begin by mentioning that I come from a very middle-class family.
And when I was growing up, money was a big, big, big differentiator in my life.
Also, in the three generations of my family that I know of, that are documented, nobody knew what fame felt like.
So, basically, both money and recognition were missing when I started out.
So, I already started out as a failure, let me be very precise.
My family told me that I had to become an engineer, medicals were booked for my sisters.
So, once I'm an engineer, then I can, you know, try civil services examination and then probably, yeah, that would be like opening the doors for all kinds of happiness and I'll be forever successful, I'll be forever happy.
This is the condition that I experienced when I was growing up.
Alright, fair enough, good deal.
So, I became very good in studies, did fairly well in my 10th board exams, and then off I went to Delhi for my +2, got myself enrolled in a nice school and Vidya Mandir and FIIT JEE and half a dozen of another coaching institutes.
所以，我的学习变得非常好，在我的第10次资格考试中取得了相当好的成绩，然后为了在德里参加我的+2考试，我进入了一所不错的学校，Vidya Mandir和FIIT JEE以及其他六家培训机构
And I used to share my room with three other similar aspirants.
What it meant was every day after finishing my assignments, school assignments, and preparing for my engineering entrance exam, I had to wash my clothes and I had to cook food for myself.
But I wasn't complaining.
Well, it was worth it because after all, I was for the very first time in my life, I was so close to become successful, for the first time in my life.
So yeah, finally I slopped, I got selected for several engineering colleges and I decided to take admission in Delhi College of Engineering, which is...DC.
Now known as DTU, thank you.
Were you my senior or junior?
So, yeah, so there was a celebration like this in my family too.
I could finally stop for a while and breathe, you know.
I was telling myself that, you know what, now you have made it.
You should be happy because you're supposed to be happy, but it wasn't working that much.
Something was missing, there was a void that I could feel.
So, I thought maybe something bigger was required.