1.The sweet beginning

1.甜美的开端

My abusive relationship started out really sweet. There were romantic date nights, spontaneous getaways, flowers, sweets, teddy bears, gifts and tons of attention and care. I did not feel anything wrong from the beginning. But then the relationship turned out sour. As soon as he realized that I was his, he stopped putting efforts into our relationship.

我的男友经常虐待我，但其实我们的关系一开始的时候很甜美。有许多约会的晚上，我们都很浪漫地度过，怡然自得的旅行，鲜花，糖果，泰迪熊，礼物以及无数的关爱。在开始的时候我没感觉到任何不对的地方。但是我们的关系最终变坏了。一旦他开始意识到我已经是他的了，他就不再花心思来经营我们的感情了。

2.Red wine is the best friend

2.红酒成了最好的朋友

When my ex hung out with his friends, red wine was my best friend. I knew I could not meet my friends because he would get angry at me, so I filled my evenings and nights with tears and too much red wine. I did not feel better, though. I woke up with severe headaches and felt weak and exhausted.

当我的前任男友和朋友鬼混的时候，红酒成了我最好的朋友。我知道我不能去见我的朋友，因为他会对我生气，因此我每天晚上以泪洗面，用大量红酒来麻痹自己。但是我并没有感觉好一点。我醒来的时候，头很疼，而且感觉疲惫不堪，身体虚弱。

3.I have made myself a priority

3.我现在最重视自己

If no one made me a priority, I came to a conclusion that I had to do it myself. Now I know that no one, including a boyfriend, is going to value me until I learn to value and respect myself first. I stop waiting for approval from others. If I want to do something, I will do it. I’m still trying to put myself first in any situation and I believe that I have enough power to move forward.

如果没有人重视我，我最终懂得需要自己珍惜自己。现在我知道，如果我不懂得重视和尊重自己，我的男朋友或者其他人也不会珍视我。我不再等待其他人的同意。如果我想做什么事情，我就会去做。在任何时候，我都会将自己放在第一位，我相信我有足够的能力一直走下去。