残忍而美丽的情谊:The Kite Runner 追风筝的人(99)
日期:2014-12-26 10:12

(单词翻译:单击)

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BECAUSE SORAYA AND I never had an engagement period, much of what I learned about the Taheris I learned after I married into their family. For example, I learned that, once a month, the general suffered from blinding migraines that lasted almost a week. When the headaches struck, the general went to his room, undressed, turned off the light, locked the door, and didn’t come out until the pain subsided. No one was allowed to go in, no one was allowed to knock. Eventually, he would emerge, dressed in his gray suit once more, smelling of sleep and bedsheets, his eyes puffy and bloodshot. I learned from Soraya that he and Khanum Taheri had slept in separate rooms for as long as she could remember. I learned that he could be petty, such as when he’d take a bite of the _qurma_ his wife placed before him, sigh, and push it away. “I’ll make you something else,” Khanum Taheri would say, but he’d ignore her, sulk, and eat bread and onion. This made Soraya angry and her mother cry. Soraya told me he took antide pressants. I learned that he had kept his family on welfare and had never held a job in the U.S., preferring to cash government-issued checks than degrading himself with work unsuitable for a man of his stature--he saw the flea market only as a hobby, a way to socialize with his fellow Afghans. The general believed that, sooner or later, Afghanistan would be freed, the monarchy restored, and his services would once again be called upon. So every day, he donned his gray suit, wound his pocket watch, and waited.
I learned that Khanum Taheri--whom I called Khala Jamila now--had once been famous in Kabul for her enchanting singing voice. Though she had never sung professionally, she had had the talent to--I learned she could sing folk songs, ghazals, even raga, which was usually a man’s domain. But as much as the general appreciated listening to music--he owned, in fact, a considerable collection of classical ghazal tapes by Afghan and Hindi singers--he believed the performing of it best left to those with lesser reputations. That she never sing in public had been one of the general’s conditions when they had married. Soraya told me that her mother had wanted to sing at our wedding, only one song, but the general gave her one of his looks and the matter was buried. Khala Jamila played the lotto once a week and watched Johnny Carson every night. She spent her days in the garden, tending to her roses, geraniums, potato vines, and orchids.
When I married Soraya, the flowers and Johnny Carson took a backseat. I was the new delight in Khala Jamila’s life. Unlike the general’s guarded and diplomatic manners--he didn’t correct me when I continued to call him “General Sahib”--Khala Jamila made no secret of how much she adored me. For one thing, I listened to her impressive list of maladies, something the general had long turned a deaf ear to. Soraya told me that, ever since her mother’s stroke, every flutter in her chest was a heart attack, every aching joint the onset of rheumatoid arthritis, and every twitch of the eye another stroke. I remember the first time Khala Jamila mentioned a lump in her neck to me. “I’ll skip school tomorrow and take you to the doctor,” I said, to which the general smiled and said, “Then you might as well turn in your books for good, bachem. Your khala’s medical charts are like the works of Rumi: They come in volumes.”
由于我和索拉雅没有经历过订婚期,我对塔赫里一家的了解,多半是来自婚后。例如,将军患有严重的偏头痛,每月发作一次,持续将近一个星期。当头痛难忍的时候,将军到自己的房间去,脱光衣服,关掉电灯,把门锁上,直到疼痛消退才走出来。他不许任何人进去,不许任何人敲门。他终究会出来,穿着那身灰色的西装,散发着睡眠和床单的气味,血红的双眼浮肿。我从索拉雅口中得知,自她懂事起,将军就和塔赫里太太分房睡。我还知道他有时很小气,比如说他妻子把菜肴摆在他面前,他会尝一口,就叹着气把它推开。 “我给你做别的。”塔赫里太太会说。但他不理不睬,阴沉着脸,只顾吃面包和洋葱。这让索拉雅很恼怒,让她妈妈哭起来。索拉雅告诉我,说他服用抗抑郁的药物。我了解到他靠救济金生活,而他到了美国之后还没工作过,宁愿用政府签发的支票去换现金,也不愿自贬身份,去干那些与他地位不配的活儿。至于跳蚤市场的营生,在他看来只是个爱好,一种可以跟他的阿富汗朋友交际的方式。将军相信,迟早有一天,阿富汗会解放,君主制会恢复,而当权者会再次征召他服役。所以他每天穿上那身灰色套装,捂着怀表,等待时来运转。
我了解到塔赫里太太——现在我管她叫雅米拉阿姨——在喀布尔时,一度以美妙的歌喉闻名。虽然她从不曾得到专业训练,但她有唱歌的天赋——我听说她会唱民歌、情歌,甚至还会唱“拉格”,[Raga,印度的一种传统音乐]这可通常是男人才唱的。可是,尽管将军非常喜欢听音乐——实际上,他拥有大量阿富汗和印度歌星演唱的经典情歌磁带,他认为演唱的事情最好还是留给那些地位低下的人去做。他们结婚的时候,将军的条款之一就是,她永远不能在公开场合唱歌。索拉雅告诉我,她妈妈本来很想在我们的婚礼上高歌一曲,只唱一首,但将军冷冷地盯了她一眼,这事就不了了之。雅米拉阿姨每周买一次彩票,每晚看强尼?卡森 [Johnny Carson(19252005),美国著名电视节目主持人]的节目。白天她在花园里劳动,照料她的蔷薇、天竺葵、土豆藤和胡姬花。
我和索拉雅结婚之后,花草和强尼?卡森不再那么受宠了。我成了雅米拉阿姨生活中的新欢。跟将军防人之心甚强的外交手腕——我继续喊他“将军大人”,他甚至都没纠正我——不同,雅米拉阿姨毫不掩饰她有多么喜欢我。首先,她细数身上病痛的时候,我总是专心聆听,而将军对此充耳不闻。索拉雅告诉我,自从她母亲中风之后,每次心悸都是心脏病,每一处关节疼痛都是风湿关节炎发作,每一次眼跳都是中风。我记得第一次,雅米拉阿姨给我看她脖子上的肿块。“明天我会逃课,带你去看医生。”我说。将军笑着说:“那么,你干脆退学不去上课算了,我的孩子,你阿姨的病历就像鲁米的著作,厚厚好几册呢。”

作品周边

内容简介
12岁的阿富汗富家少爷阿米尔与仆人哈桑情同手足。然而,在一场风筝比赛后,发生了一件悲惨不堪的事,阿米尔为自己的懦弱感到自责和痛苦,逼走了哈桑,不久,自己也跟随父亲逃往美国。

成年后的阿米尔始终无法原谅自己当年对哈桑的背叛。为了赎罪,阿米尔再度踏上暌违二十多年的故乡,希望能为不幸的好友尽最后一点心力,却发现一个惊天谎言,儿时的噩梦再度重演,阿米尔该如何抉择?

故事如此残忍而又美丽,作者以温暖细腻的笔法勾勒人性的本质与救赎,读来令人荡气回肠。

作者简介
卡勒德·胡赛尼(Khaled Hosseini),1965年生于阿富汗喀布尔市,后随父亲迁往美国。胡赛尼毕业于加州大学圣地亚哥医学系,现居加州。“立志拂去蒙在阿富汗普通民众面孔的尘灰,将背后灵魂的悸动展示给世人。”著有小说《追风筝的人》(The Kite Runner,2003)、《灿烂千阳》(A Thousand Splendid Suns,2007)、《群山回唱》(And the Mountains Echoed,2013)。作品全球销量超过4000万册。2006年,因其作品巨大的国际影响力,胡赛尼获得联合国人道主义奖,并受邀担任联合国难民署亲善大使。
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对友谊最大的误解,就是认为它是万能的(来自豆瓣网友:谢长留)
  我时常幻想自己是来自未来的,这样,有一天我面对未来某一时刻的突然变化,就会更从容,面对陈年往事也会更慷慨。但,我更适合平庸,如寻常人一样琐碎繁杂的生活,对时间的细枝末节斤斤计较。
  
  既然无法预知未来,那么人更多的开始依赖回忆,甚至靠那些零星琐碎的回忆支撑往后的日子,有些回忆很美好,有些回忆很心酸,有些回忆让人长大,有些回忆让人显得很无知,有些回忆慢慢泛黄,有些回忆仿佛就在昨天。有些故事也总是从儿时的回忆展开。
  
  我对阿富汗以及周边连年征战的国家和他们的历史毫无兴趣,对我而言,那里的人民是可怜的,那里的政府是可悲的,所以当《追风筝的人》这个故事一点一点展现在我面前的时候,我并没准备好接受一个平静的,也曾春暖花开,羊肉串香飘整条街的画面,更没想到那里的孩子也可以无忧无虑的追逐风筝。
  
  所以当身为少爷的阿米尔和他的仆人哈桑情同手足的画面一出现,所有读者不禁感叹,少年时的友谊是那么充满力量,干净而持久的。他们总是并肩而行,每当阿米尔被人欺负的时候,哈桑总是义无反顾的站出来保护,很多人说这是哈桑天生的奴性,这种观点我不赞同,我看见他们之间分明有一道友谊的光芒在闪耀。
  
  当阿米尔问哈桑为什么确定自己一定会知道被切断绳线的风筝的掉落地的时候,哈桑肯定的对阿米尔说,我就是知道,然后反问,我什么时候骗过你。阿米尔轻声说,我怎么知道有没有骗过我。哈桑发誓,为了你,我宁可啃烂泥。阿米尔进一步确定,你真的会为我啃烂泥?哈桑坚定的说,我肯定,然后又说,但是你又怎么能忍心让我啃烂泥。所以读者心中所向往的也就是我们每个人心中那个潮湿的童年印象,总是和自己最亲密的伙伴,席地而坐,互相盟誓,发誓为对方,甘愿上刀山下火海。就如同哈桑洋溢着笑脸对阿米尔说的那样:为你,千千万万遍。
  
  然而事实上却是这样的:他是主人,他是仆人;他是普什图,他是哈扎拉;他是逊尼派,他是什叶派,从他们出生的那一刻起,他们的命运就被这些他们所不能理解的标签所分隔开来,尽管他们是亲密无间的朋友,尽管他们事实上拥有同一位父亲。无论是平凡的阿米尔和哈桑,还是高高在上的查希尔国王或者卡尔扎伊,都不得不接受社会为他们预定的座位——阿米尔不再是阿米尔,哈桑也不再是哈桑,他们必须戴上社会分给他们的面具。
  
  哈桑总是说“为你,千千万万遍”,而生性懦弱的阿米尔却选择沉默冷酷的逃避,这样的悲剧性结果并不单单是个性差异所造成的,在这些年少无知的孩子的潜意识里早已被灌输了相应于自身社会地位的“应该”与“不应该”,一个哈扎拉仆人理应为主人尽忠,而高贵的普什图少爷不值得为一个卑贱的哈扎拉仆人冒任何风险。
  
  “阿米尔和哈桑,喀布尔的统治者”,这样的誓言只能是石榴树下的童话,“王子与贫儿”不可能成为兄弟,因为他们命中注定不平等。包括二十年后,阿米尔重返阿富汗的自我救赎行为,也只不过是在获知自己与哈桑的同父异母兄弟关系之后对身世的无奈认可,也就是说,他仍然没有证明自己已经找到了“重新成为好人的路”。
  
  我们少年的时候,总是意气风发,三五结伴,促膝长谈。那是在我们其乐融融的环境中构建的虚拟场景,属于物理学讲究的理想状态,然而在残酷的现实面前,在微弱的友谊遇到挑战的时刻,只要有一方露出破绽,友谊的桥梁必然坍塌。
  
  于是当阿米尔在看到哈桑被大一些的孩子欺负甚至猥亵的时候,他选择沉默和逃避;与此同时,哈桑却为了阿米尔的风筝坚定不动摇的和对手较量,对手残忍的揭示阿米尔和哈桑之间的主仆关系,哈桑大声反驳说两个人是朋友。躲在角落里不敢出现的阿米尔听到这句话不但没有一点激励也没有丝毫感动,他心底里的怯懦终于将他的灵魂吞噬,于是悲剧发生。
  
  这就是我们对友谊最大的误解,认为它是万能的。
  
  即使是存在这样的问题,《追风筝的人》也还是一本出色的小说。主和仆、贵族和贱民、朋友和兄弟,历史和现实,种种转变都被刻画得生动而细腻。放在历史的宏大背景下,更洞见人生和人性的复杂。
  
  友谊和爱。
  
  是在困难之中由弱变强的柔韧派还是在权衡利弊之中土崩瓦解的懦弱派。
  
  谁敢真的站出来举起右手发誓,我从来没有辜负过任何一段纯粹的友谊,谁敢真的抬头挺胸说自己对朋友忠心不二。
  
  我们总是太自信,对友谊误解,对自己的爱误解,对不可能的事信以为真。

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