残忍而美丽的情谊:The Kite Runner 追风筝的人(88)
日期:2014-12-11 08:37

(单词翻译:单击)

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“I know,” she said. “My mother told me.” Then her face red dened with a blush at what she had blurted, at the implication of her answer, that “Amir Conversations” took place between them when I wasn’t there. It took an enormous effort to stop myself from smiling.
“I brought you something.” I fished the roll of stapled pages from my back pocket. “As promised.” I handed her one of my short stories.
“Oh, you remembered,” she said, actually beaming. “Thank you!” I barely had time to register that she’d addressed me with “tu” for the first time and not the formal “shoma,” because suddenly her smile vanished. The color dropped from her face, and her eyes fixed on something behind me. I turned around. Came face-to-face with General Taheri.
“Amir jan. Our aspiring storyteller. What a pleasure,” he said. He was smiling thinly.
“Salaam, General Sahib,” I said through heavy lips.
He moved past me, toward the booth. “What a beautiful day it is, nay?” he said, thumb hooked in the breast pocket of his vest, the other hand extended toward Soraya. She gave him the pages.
“They say it will rain this week. Hard to believe, isn’t it?” He dropped the rolled pages in the garbage can. Turned to me and gently put a hand on my shoulder. We took a few steps together.
“You know, bachem, I have grown rather fond of you. You are a decent boy, I really believe that, but--” he sighed and waved a hand “--even decent boys need reminding sometimes. So it’s my duty to remind you that you are among peers in this flea market.” He stopped. His expressionless eyes bore into mine. “You see, everyone here is a storyteller.” He smiled, revealing perfectly even teeth. “Do pass my respects to your father, Amir jan.”
He dropped his hand. Smiled again.
“WHAT’S WRONG?” Baba said. He was taking an elderly woman’s money for a rocking horse.
“Nothing,” I said. I sat down on an old TV set. Then I told him anyway.
“Akh, Amir,” he sighed.
As it turned out, I didn’t get to brood too much over what had happened.
Because later that week, Baba caught a cold.
IT STARTED WITH A HACKING COUGH and the sniffles. He got over the sniffles, but the cough persisted. He’d hack into his handkerchief, stow it in his pocket. I kept after him to get it checked, but he’d wave me away. He hated doctors and hospitals. To my knowledge, the only time Baba had ever gone to a doctor was the time he’d caught malaria in India.
Then, two weeks later, I caught him coughing a wad of blood-stained phlegm into the toilet.
“How long have you been doing that?” I said.
“What’s for dinner?” he said.
“I’m taking you to the doctor.”
Even though Baba was a manager at the gas station, the owner hadn’t offered him health insurance, and Baba, in his recklessness, hadn’t insisted. So I took him to the county hospital in San Jose. The sallow, puffy-eyed doctor who saw us introduced himself as a second-year resident. “He looks younger than you and sicker than me,” Baba grumbled. The resident sent us down for a chest X-ray. When the nurse called us back in, the resident was filling out a form.
“Take this to the front desk,” he said, scribbling quickly.
“What is it?” I asked.
“A referral.” Scribble scribble.
“For what?”
“Pulmonary clinic.”
“What’s that?”
He gave me a quick glance. Pushed up his glasses. Began scribbling again. “He’s got a spot on his right lung. I want them to check it out.”
“A spot?” I said, the room suddenly too small.
“Cancer?” Baba added casually.
“Possible. It’s suspicious, anyway,” the doctor muttered.
“Can’t you tell us more?” I asked.
“Not really. Need a CAT scan first, then see the lung doctor.” He handed me the referral form. “You said your father smokes, right?”
“Yes.”
“我知道,”她说,“我妈妈跟我说过。”接着因为这句话,她脸上泛起红晕。她的答案暗示着,我不在的时候,她们曾经“谈起阿米尔”。我费了好大劲才忍住让自己不发笑。
“我给你带了些东西,”我从后裤兜掏出一卷订好的纸张,“实现诺言。”我递给她一篇自己写的小故事。
“哦,你还记得。”她说,笑逐颜开,“谢谢你!”我没有时间体会她第一次用“你”而非用较正式的“您”称呼我到底意味着什么,因为突然间她的笑容消失了,脸上的红晕褪去,眼睛盯着我身后。我转过身,跟塔赫里将军面对面站着。
“亲爱的阿米尔,抱负远大的说故事的人,很高兴见到你。”他说,挂着淡淡的微笑。
“你好,将军大人。”我嗫嚅着说。
他从我身旁走过,迈向货摊。“今天天气很好,是吗?”他说,拇指搭在他那间背心的上袋,另一只手伸向索拉雅。她把纸卷给了他。
“他们说整个星期都会下雨呢。很难相信吧,是吗?”他把那卷纸张丢进垃圾桶。转向我,轻轻地把手放在我的肩膀上,我们并排走了几步。
“你知道,我的孩子,我相当喜欢你。你是个有教养的孩子,我真的这么认为,但是……”他叹了口气,挥挥手,“……即使有教养的男孩有时也需要提醒。所以,我有责任提醒你,你是在跳蚤市场的众目睽睽之下做事情。”他停住,他那不露喜怒的眸子直盯着我双眼,“你知道,这里每个人都会讲故事。”他微笑,露出一口整整齐齐的牙齿,“替我向你爸爸问好,亲爱的阿米尔。”
他把手放下,又露出微笑。
“怎么回事?”爸爸说,接过一个老妇人买木马的钱。
“没事。”我说。我坐在一台旧电视机上。不过还是告诉他了。
“唉,阿米尔。”他叹气。
结果,刚才发生的事情没有让我烦恼太久。
因为那个星期稍晚一些时候,爸爸感冒了。
开始只是有点咳嗽和流鼻涕。他的流鼻涕痊愈了,可是咳嗽还是没好。他会咳在手帕上,把它藏在口袋里。我不停地求他去检查,但他会挥手叫我走开。他讨厌大夫和医院。就我所知,爸爸惟一去医院那次,是在印度染上疟疾。
然后,过了两个星期,我撞见他正把一口带血丝的痰咳到马桶里面去。
“你这样多久了?”我说。
“晚饭吃什么?”他说。
“我要带你去看大夫。”
虽说爸爸已经是加油站的经理,那老板没有给他提供医疗保险,而爸爸满不在乎,没有坚持。于是我带他去圣荷塞的县立医院。有个面带菜色、双眼浮肿的大夫接待了我们,自我介绍说是第二年的驻院医师。“他看起来比你还年轻,但比我病得还重。”爸爸咕哝说。那驻院医师让我们下楼去做胸部X光扫描。护士喊我们进去的时候,医师正在填一张表。
“把这张表带到前台。”他说,匆匆写着。
“那是什么?”我问。
“转诊介绍。”他写啊写。
“干吗用?”
“给肺科。”
“那是什么?”
他瞥了我一眼,推了推眼镜,又开始写起来。“他肺部的右边有个黑点,我想让他们复查一下。”
“黑点?”我说,房间突然之间变得太小了。
“癌症吗?”爸爸若无其事地加上一句。
“也许是,总之很可疑。”医生咕哝道。
“你可以多告诉我们一些吗?”我问。
“没办法,需要先去做CAT扫描,然后去看肺科医生。”他把转诊单递给我。“你说过你爸爸吸烟,对吧?”
“是的。”

作品周边

内容简介
12岁的阿富汗富家少爷阿米尔与仆人哈桑情同手足。然而,在一场风筝比赛后,发生了一件悲惨不堪的事,阿米尔为自己的懦弱感到自责和痛苦,逼走了哈桑,不久,自己也跟随父亲逃往美国。

成年后的阿米尔始终无法原谅自己当年对哈桑的背叛。为了赎罪,阿米尔再度踏上暌违二十多年的故乡,希望能为不幸的好友尽最后一点心力,却发现一个惊天谎言,儿时的噩梦再度重演,阿米尔该如何抉择?

故事如此残忍而又美丽,作者以温暖细腻的笔法勾勒人性的本质与救赎,读来令人荡气回肠。

作者简介
卡勒德·胡赛尼(Khaled Hosseini),1965年生于阿富汗喀布尔市,后随父亲迁往美国。胡赛尼毕业于加州大学圣地亚哥医学系,现居加州。“立志拂去蒙在阿富汗普通民众面孔的尘灰,将背后灵魂的悸动展示给世人。”著有小说《追风筝的人》(The Kite Runner,2003)、《灿烂千阳》(A Thousand Splendid Suns,2007)、《群山回唱》(And the Mountains Echoed,2013)。作品全球销量超过4000万册。2006年,因其作品巨大的国际影响力,胡赛尼获得联合国人道主义奖,并受邀担任联合国难民署亲善大使。
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对友谊最大的误解,就是认为它是万能的(来自豆瓣网友:谢长留)
  我时常幻想自己是来自未来的,这样,有一天我面对未来某一时刻的突然变化,就会更从容,面对陈年往事也会更慷慨。但,我更适合平庸,如寻常人一样琐碎繁杂的生活,对时间的细枝末节斤斤计较。
  
  既然无法预知未来,那么人更多的开始依赖回忆,甚至靠那些零星琐碎的回忆支撑往后的日子,有些回忆很美好,有些回忆很心酸,有些回忆让人长大,有些回忆让人显得很无知,有些回忆慢慢泛黄,有些回忆仿佛就在昨天。有些故事也总是从儿时的回忆展开。
  
  我对阿富汗以及周边连年征战的国家和他们的历史毫无兴趣,对我而言,那里的人民是可怜的,那里的政府是可悲的,所以当《追风筝的人》这个故事一点一点展现在我面前的时候,我并没准备好接受一个平静的,也曾春暖花开,羊肉串香飘整条街的画面,更没想到那里的孩子也可以无忧无虑的追逐风筝。
  
  所以当身为少爷的阿米尔和他的仆人哈桑情同手足的画面一出现,所有读者不禁感叹,少年时的友谊是那么充满力量,干净而持久的。他们总是并肩而行,每当阿米尔被人欺负的时候,哈桑总是义无反顾的站出来保护,很多人说这是哈桑天生的奴性,这种观点我不赞同,我看见他们之间分明有一道友谊的光芒在闪耀。
  
  当阿米尔问哈桑为什么确定自己一定会知道被切断绳线的风筝的掉落地的时候,哈桑肯定的对阿米尔说,我就是知道,然后反问,我什么时候骗过你。阿米尔轻声说,我怎么知道有没有骗过我。哈桑发誓,为了你,我宁可啃烂泥。阿米尔进一步确定,你真的会为我啃烂泥?哈桑坚定的说,我肯定,然后又说,但是你又怎么能忍心让我啃烂泥。所以读者心中所向往的也就是我们每个人心中那个潮湿的童年印象,总是和自己最亲密的伙伴,席地而坐,互相盟誓,发誓为对方,甘愿上刀山下火海。就如同哈桑洋溢着笑脸对阿米尔说的那样:为你,千千万万遍。
  
  然而事实上却是这样的:他是主人,他是仆人;他是普什图,他是哈扎拉;他是逊尼派,他是什叶派,从他们出生的那一刻起,他们的命运就被这些他们所不能理解的标签所分隔开来,尽管他们是亲密无间的朋友,尽管他们事实上拥有同一位父亲。无论是平凡的阿米尔和哈桑,还是高高在上的查希尔国王或者卡尔扎伊,都不得不接受社会为他们预定的座位——阿米尔不再是阿米尔,哈桑也不再是哈桑,他们必须戴上社会分给他们的面具。
  
  哈桑总是说“为你,千千万万遍”,而生性懦弱的阿米尔却选择沉默冷酷的逃避,这样的悲剧性结果并不单单是个性差异所造成的,在这些年少无知的孩子的潜意识里早已被灌输了相应于自身社会地位的“应该”与“不应该”,一个哈扎拉仆人理应为主人尽忠,而高贵的普什图少爷不值得为一个卑贱的哈扎拉仆人冒任何风险。
  
  “阿米尔和哈桑,喀布尔的统治者”,这样的誓言只能是石榴树下的童话,“王子与贫儿”不可能成为兄弟,因为他们命中注定不平等。包括二十年后,阿米尔重返阿富汗的自我救赎行为,也只不过是在获知自己与哈桑的同父异母兄弟关系之后对身世的无奈认可,也就是说,他仍然没有证明自己已经找到了“重新成为好人的路”。
  
  我们少年的时候,总是意气风发,三五结伴,促膝长谈。那是在我们其乐融融的环境中构建的虚拟场景,属于物理学讲究的理想状态,然而在残酷的现实面前,在微弱的友谊遇到挑战的时刻,只要有一方露出破绽,友谊的桥梁必然坍塌。
  
  于是当阿米尔在看到哈桑被大一些的孩子欺负甚至猥亵的时候,他选择沉默和逃避;与此同时,哈桑却为了阿米尔的风筝坚定不动摇的和对手较量,对手残忍的揭示阿米尔和哈桑之间的主仆关系,哈桑大声反驳说两个人是朋友。躲在角落里不敢出现的阿米尔听到这句话不但没有一点激励也没有丝毫感动,他心底里的怯懦终于将他的灵魂吞噬,于是悲剧发生。
  
  这就是我们对友谊最大的误解,认为它是万能的。
  
  即使是存在这样的问题,《追风筝的人》也还是一本出色的小说。主和仆、贵族和贱民、朋友和兄弟,历史和现实,种种转变都被刻画得生动而细腻。放在历史的宏大背景下,更洞见人生和人性的复杂。
  
  友谊和爱。
  
  是在困难之中由弱变强的柔韧派还是在权衡利弊之中土崩瓦解的懦弱派。
  
  谁敢真的站出来举起右手发誓,我从来没有辜负过任何一段纯粹的友谊,谁敢真的抬头挺胸说自己对朋友忠心不二。
  
  我们总是太自信,对友谊误解,对自己的爱误解,对不可能的事信以为真。

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