残忍而美丽的情谊:The Kite Runner 追风筝的人(64)
日期:2014-11-07 09:29

(单词翻译:单击)

双语小说

He tipped his drink to me and took a sip. He lit a cigarette, one of the unfiltered Pakistani cigarettes he and Baba were always smoking. “Did I ever tell you I was almost married once?”
“Really?” I said, smiling a little at the notion of Rahim Khan getting married. I’d always thought of him as Baba’s quiet alter ego, my writing mentor, my pal, the one who never forgot to bring me a souvenir, a saughat, when he returned from a trip abroad. But a husband? A father?
He nodded. “It’s true. I was eighteen. Her name was Homaira. She was a Hazara, the daughter of our neighbor’s servants. She was as beautiful as a pari, light brown hair, big hazel eyes... she had this laugh... I can still hear it sometimes.” He twirled his glass. “We used to meet secretly in my father’s apple orchards, always after midnight when everyone had gone to sleep. We’d walk under the trees and I’d hold her hand... Am I embarrassing you, Amir jan?”
“A little,” I said.
“It won’t kill you,” he said, taking another puff. “Anyway, we had this fantasy. We’d have a great, fancy wedding and invite family and friends from Kabul to Kandahar. I would build us a big house, white with a tiled patio and large windows. We would plant fruit trees in the garden and grow all sorts of flowers, have a lawn for our kids to play on. On Fridays, after _namaz_ at the mosque, everyone would get together at our house for lunch and we’d eat in the garden, under cherry trees, drink fresh water from the well. Then tea with candy as we watched our kids play with their cousins...”
He took a long gulp of his scotch. Coughed. “You should have seen the look on my father’s face when I told him. My mother actually fainted. My sisters splashed her face with water. They fanned her and looked at me as if I had slit her throat. My brother Jalal actually went to fetch his hunting rifle before my father stopped him.” Rahim Khan barked a bitter laughter. “It was Homaira and me against the world. And I’ll tell you this, Amir jan: In the end, the world always wins. That’s just the way of things.”
“So what happened?”
“That same day, my father put Homaira and her family on a lorry and sent them off to Hazarajat. I never saw her again.”
“I’m sorry,” I said.
“Probably for the best, though,” Rahim Khan said, shrugging. “She would have suffered. My family would have never accepted her as an equal. You don’t order someone to polish your shoes one day and call them ‘sister’ the next.” He looked at me. “You know, you can tell me anything you want, Amir jan. Anytime.”
“I know,” I said uncertainly. He looked at me for a long time, like he was waiting, his black bottomless eyes hinting at an unspoken secret between us. For a moment, I almost did tell him. Almost told him everything, but then what would he think of me? He’d hate me, and rightfully.
“Here.” He handed me something. “I almost forgot. Happy birthday.” It was a brown leather-bound notebook. I traced my fingers along the gold-colored stitching on the borders. I smelled the leather. “For your stories,” he said. I was going to thank him when something exploded and bursts of fire lit up the sky.
“Fireworks!”
We hurried back to the house and found the guests all standing in the yard, looking up to the sky. Kids hooted and screamed with each crackle and whoosh. People cheered, burst into applause each time flares sizzled and exploded into bouquets of fire. Every few seconds, the backyard lit up in sudden flashes of red, green, and yellow.
In one of those brief bursts of light, I saw something I’ll never forget: Hassan serving drinks to Assef and Wali from a silver platter. The light winked out, a hiss and a crackle, then another flicker of orange light: Assef grinning, kneading Hassan in the chest with a knuckle.
Then, mercifully, darkness.
他朝我举举杯,喝了一口。他点起一根香烟,没有过滤嘴的巴基斯坦香烟,他和爸爸总是抽这种。“我有没有告诉过你我差点就结婚了?”
“真的吗?”我说,想到拉辛汗也结婚,不由微微笑着。我一直当他是爸爸寡言的知交,我的写作导师,我的朋友,当他是那个每次到国外旅行总不忘给我买点小礼物的人。但是丈夫?父亲?
他点点头:“真的。那年我十八岁。她的名字叫荷麦拉。她是哈扎拉人,我家邻居仆人的女儿。她像仙女一样好看,淡棕色的头发,褐色的大眼睛……她总是这样笑……我有时还能听到她的笑声。”他晃晃酒杯,“我们经常在我父亲的苹果园里幽会,总是在夜阑人静的时候。我们在树下聊天,我拉着她的手……我让你不好意思了吗,阿米尔?”
“有一点点。”我说。
“那对你无害的,”他说,又喝了一口。“不管怎样,我们有着这样的幻想。我们会有一个盛大的、梦幻般的婚礼,从坎大哈和喀布尔请亲朋好友来参加。我会给我们盖一座大房子,白色的,露台铺着瓷砖,窗户很大。我们会在花园里种果树,还有各种各样的花儿,有一个草坪,我们的孩子在上面玩耍。星期五,在清真寺做过祷告之后,每个人会到我们家里吃午饭,我们在花园用膳,在樱桃树下,从井里打水喝。然后我们喝着茶,吃着糖果,看着我们的孩子跟亲戚的小孩玩……”
他喝了一大口烈酒,咳嗽。“可惜你看不到我把这件事告诉我爸爸时他脸上的表情。我妈妈完全昏厥了,我的姐妹用冷水扑打她的脸,她们对着她扇风,仿佛我用刀子割了她的喉咙。要不是我爸爸及时阻止,我哥哥雅拉尔真的会去抓来他的猎枪。”拉辛汗说,带着痛苦的笑声,“我跟荷麦拉对抗着整个世界。并且我告诉你,亲爱的阿米尔,到了最后,总是这个世界赢得胜利。就这么回事。”
“后来怎样呢?”
“就在那天,我爸爸将荷麦拉和她的家人赶上一辆货车,送他们去哈扎拉贾特。我再也没有见到过她。”
“真遗憾。”我说。
“不过这也许是最好的结果了,”拉辛汗说,耸耸肩。“她会受辱的。我的家人将永远不会平等对待她。你不会下令让某人替你擦鞋子,而当天晚些时候管她叫‘姐妹’。”他看着我,“你知道,你可以告诉我任何你想说的事情,亲爱的阿米尔,任何时候。”
“我知道,”我惴惴地说。他久久看着我,似乎在等待;他黑色的眼睛深洞无底,隐藏着我们之间一个没有说出的秘密。那一刻,我差点就告诉他了,差点把什么都对他说,可是到时他会怎么看待我?他会恨我,而且合情合理。
“给你,”他递给我某件东西,“我差点忘记了,生日快乐。”那是个棕色的皮面笔记本。我伸出手指,摸索着它镶着金线的边缘,闻到皮革的味道。“给你写故事用的。”他说。我刚要向他道谢,有些东西爆炸了,在天空中燃起火焰。
“烟花!”
我们匆忙赶回家,发现所有的宾客都站在院子里,望着天空。每次爆裂和呼啸升空的声音,都会引来孩子们大声尖叫。每次火焰嘶嘶作响,爆裂开来,变成花束,都会引起人们欢呼,拍掌称好。每隔几秒钟,后院就会被突然爆发的火光点亮,有红的、绿的、黄的。
在一次短暂的闪光中,我看到永世不会忘记的情景:哈桑端着银盘,服侍阿塞夫和瓦里喝酒。那阵光芒消失了,又是一声嘶嘶,一声爆裂,接着是一道橙色的火光:阿塞夫狞笑着,用一根指节敲打着哈桑的胸膛。
然后,天可怜见,什么都看不到了。

作品周边

内容简介
12岁的阿富汗富家少爷阿米尔与仆人哈桑情同手足。然而,在一场风筝比赛后,发生了一件悲惨不堪的事,阿米尔为自己的懦弱感到自责和痛苦,逼走了哈桑,不久,自己也跟随父亲逃往美国。

成年后的阿米尔始终无法原谅自己当年对哈桑的背叛。为了赎罪,阿米尔再度踏上暌违二十多年的故乡,希望能为不幸的好友尽最后一点心力,却发现一个惊天谎言,儿时的噩梦再度重演,阿米尔该如何抉择?

故事如此残忍而又美丽,作者以温暖细腻的笔法勾勒人性的本质与救赎,读来令人荡气回肠。

作者简介
卡勒德·胡赛尼(Khaled Hosseini),1965年生于阿富汗喀布尔市,后随父亲迁往美国。胡赛尼毕业于加州大学圣地亚哥医学系,现居加州。“立志拂去蒙在阿富汗普通民众面孔的尘灰,将背后灵魂的悸动展示给世人。”著有小说《追风筝的人》(The Kite Runner,2003)、《灿烂千阳》(A Thousand Splendid Suns,2007)、《群山回唱》(And the Mountains Echoed,2013)。作品全球销量超过4000万册。2006年,因其作品巨大的国际影响力,胡赛尼获得联合国人道主义奖,并受邀担任联合国难民署亲善大使。
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对友谊最大的误解,就是认为它是万能的(来自豆瓣网友:谢长留)
  我时常幻想自己是来自未来的,这样,有一天我面对未来某一时刻的突然变化,就会更从容,面对陈年往事也会更慷慨。但,我更适合平庸,如寻常人一样琐碎繁杂的生活,对时间的细枝末节斤斤计较。
  
  既然无法预知未来,那么人更多的开始依赖回忆,甚至靠那些零星琐碎的回忆支撑往后的日子,有些回忆很美好,有些回忆很心酸,有些回忆让人长大,有些回忆让人显得很无知,有些回忆慢慢泛黄,有些回忆仿佛就在昨天。有些故事也总是从儿时的回忆展开。
  
  我对阿富汗以及周边连年征战的国家和他们的历史毫无兴趣,对我而言,那里的人民是可怜的,那里的政府是可悲的,所以当《追风筝的人》这个故事一点一点展现在我面前的时候,我并没准备好接受一个平静的,也曾春暖花开,羊肉串香飘整条街的画面,更没想到那里的孩子也可以无忧无虑的追逐风筝。
  
  所以当身为少爷的阿米尔和他的仆人哈桑情同手足的画面一出现,所有读者不禁感叹,少年时的友谊是那么充满力量,干净而持久的。他们总是并肩而行,每当阿米尔被人欺负的时候,哈桑总是义无反顾的站出来保护,很多人说这是哈桑天生的奴性,这种观点我不赞同,我看见他们之间分明有一道友谊的光芒在闪耀。
  
  当阿米尔问哈桑为什么确定自己一定会知道被切断绳线的风筝的掉落地的时候,哈桑肯定的对阿米尔说,我就是知道,然后反问,我什么时候骗过你。阿米尔轻声说,我怎么知道有没有骗过我。哈桑发誓,为了你,我宁可啃烂泥。阿米尔进一步确定,你真的会为我啃烂泥?哈桑坚定的说,我肯定,然后又说,但是你又怎么能忍心让我啃烂泥。所以读者心中所向往的也就是我们每个人心中那个潮湿的童年印象,总是和自己最亲密的伙伴,席地而坐,互相盟誓,发誓为对方,甘愿上刀山下火海。就如同哈桑洋溢着笑脸对阿米尔说的那样:为你,千千万万遍。
  
  然而事实上却是这样的:他是主人,他是仆人;他是普什图,他是哈扎拉;他是逊尼派,他是什叶派,从他们出生的那一刻起,他们的命运就被这些他们所不能理解的标签所分隔开来,尽管他们是亲密无间的朋友,尽管他们事实上拥有同一位父亲。无论是平凡的阿米尔和哈桑,还是高高在上的查希尔国王或者卡尔扎伊,都不得不接受社会为他们预定的座位——阿米尔不再是阿米尔,哈桑也不再是哈桑,他们必须戴上社会分给他们的面具。
  
  哈桑总是说“为你,千千万万遍”,而生性懦弱的阿米尔却选择沉默冷酷的逃避,这样的悲剧性结果并不单单是个性差异所造成的,在这些年少无知的孩子的潜意识里早已被灌输了相应于自身社会地位的“应该”与“不应该”,一个哈扎拉仆人理应为主人尽忠,而高贵的普什图少爷不值得为一个卑贱的哈扎拉仆人冒任何风险。
  
  “阿米尔和哈桑,喀布尔的统治者”,这样的誓言只能是石榴树下的童话,“王子与贫儿”不可能成为兄弟,因为他们命中注定不平等。包括二十年后,阿米尔重返阿富汗的自我救赎行为,也只不过是在获知自己与哈桑的同父异母兄弟关系之后对身世的无奈认可,也就是说,他仍然没有证明自己已经找到了“重新成为好人的路”。
  
  我们少年的时候,总是意气风发,三五结伴,促膝长谈。那是在我们其乐融融的环境中构建的虚拟场景,属于物理学讲究的理想状态,然而在残酷的现实面前,在微弱的友谊遇到挑战的时刻,只要有一方露出破绽,友谊的桥梁必然坍塌。
  
  于是当阿米尔在看到哈桑被大一些的孩子欺负甚至猥亵的时候,他选择沉默和逃避;与此同时,哈桑却为了阿米尔的风筝坚定不动摇的和对手较量,对手残忍的揭示阿米尔和哈桑之间的主仆关系,哈桑大声反驳说两个人是朋友。躲在角落里不敢出现的阿米尔听到这句话不但没有一点激励也没有丝毫感动,他心底里的怯懦终于将他的灵魂吞噬,于是悲剧发生。
  
  这就是我们对友谊最大的误解,认为它是万能的。
  
  即使是存在这样的问题,《追风筝的人》也还是一本出色的小说。主和仆、贵族和贱民、朋友和兄弟,历史和现实,种种转变都被刻画得生动而细腻。放在历史的宏大背景下,更洞见人生和人性的复杂。
  
  友谊和爱。
  
  是在困难之中由弱变强的柔韧派还是在权衡利弊之中土崩瓦解的懦弱派。
  
  谁敢真的站出来举起右手发誓,我从来没有辜负过任何一段纯粹的友谊,谁敢真的抬头挺胸说自己对朋友忠心不二。
  
  我们总是太自信,对友谊误解,对自己的爱误解,对不可能的事信以为真。

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重点单词
  • runnern. 赛跑的人,跑步者
  • souvenirn. 纪念品
  • unspokenadj. 未说出口的;无言的;不言而喻的
  • applausen. 鼓掌,喝彩,赞许 v. 鼓掌
  • cherryn. 樱桃(树), 樱桃色
  • alterv. 改变,更改,阉割,切除
  • candyn. 糖果 vt. 用糖煮,使结晶为砂糖 vi. 结晶为
  • mentorn. 指导者 vt. 指导
  • pation. 天井(庭院)
  • hissn. 嘘声,嘶嘶声 v. 发出嘘声(表示不满), 发嘶嘶