Forget life as a pop megastar - what Michael Jackson really wanted was to be immortalized as a big-screen idol after his death.
忘却作为流行音乐超级巨星的生涯——迈克尔·杰克逊真实的愿望是在他死后能作为电影偶像而不朽。
The late entertainer admired song and dance stars from the golden age of Hollywood, including his heroes Gene Kelly and Fred Astaire, and wanted to emulate their success.
这名已故的艺人十分钦佩好莱坞黄金时代的歌舞明星，包括他心中的英雄金·凯利和弗雷德·阿斯泰尔，他还希望效仿他们的成功。
The 50-year-old singer revealed his deepest desire in his secret diary, writing: 'If I don’t concentrate (on) film, no immortalization.'
这位50岁的歌手在他的秘密日记中揭露了内心最深的愿望，他写道：“如果我不专注于电影事业，我就无法永垂不朽”。
He added that he wanted to be 'better than Kelly and Astaire… the greatest ever.'
他补充写道他想成为“比凯利和阿斯泰尔更好的......有史以来最伟大的（明星）”。
The entry was made just months before Michael died of a drug overdose on June 25, 2009 at his home in the posh Holmby Hills neighbourhood of Los Angeles, according to excepts from his diary published by The New York Post's Page Six column today.
根据今天《纽约邮报》第六版刊登的日记内容可知，这篇记录写于迈克尔在2009年6月25日在洛杉矶霍姆比山庄的豪宅中因药物过量而去世的前几个月。
The diary reveals just how much the star depended on his now discredited doctor, Conrad Murray, to administer the prescription drugs that helped him to sleep.
日记还揭露了这位巨星有多依赖他那现已名誉扫地的医生康拉德·莫里，给予他助眠的处方药。
Lawyers for Michael's mother Katherine Jackson are now trying to get passages of the diary admitted as evidence to back up a wrongful death suit against London concert promoter AEG.
迈克尔的母亲凯瑟琳·杰克逊现正尝试从日记获取信息，作为控告杰克逊伦敦演唱会的主办公司AEG致使他异常死亡的证据。