Chapter XIX
第十九章
When I began my second year at the Gilman school, I was full of hope and determination to succeed. But during the first few weeks I was confronted with unforeseen difficulties. Mr. Gilman had agreed that that year I should study mathematics principally. I had physics, algebra, geometry, astronomy, Greek and Latin. Unfortunately, many of the books I needed had not been embossed in time for me to begin with the classes, and I lacked important apparatus for some of my studies. The classes I was in were very large, and it was impossible for the teachers to give me special instruction. Miss Sullivan was obliged to read all the books to me, and interpret for the instructors, and for the first time in eleven years it seemed as if her dear hand would not be equal to the task.
当我在吉尔曼的学校开始第二年的学习生涯时，我满怀希望，内心里充满了必胜的信心。但是在最初的几个星期里，我遇到一些意外的难题。吉尔曼先生认为我在这一年里应该以学习数学为主。当时我学习的课程有物理、代数、几何学、希腊语和拉丁文。不幸的是，我需要的许多书都没有被制成盲文，因此在有些科目上，我缺少了必要的学习工具。而且，这些科目都是很多人一起上的大课，老师不可能为我做单独辅导。苏立文小姐只得把所有的课本读给我听，还要为我翻译老师的话。十一年来，她那双神奇的手头一次流露出力不从心的迹象。
It was necessary for me to write algebra and geometry in class and solve problems in physics, and this I could not do until we bought a braille writer, by means of which I could put down the steps and processes of my work. I could not follow with my eyes the geometrical figures drawn on the blackboard, and my only means of getting a clear idea of them was to make them on a cushion with straight and curved wires, which had bent and pointed ends. I had to carry in my mind, as Mr. Keith says in his report, the lettering of the figures, the hypothesis and conclusion, the construction and the process of the proof. In a word, every study had its obstacles. Sometimes I lost all courage and betrayed my feelings in a way I am ashamed to remember, especially as the signs of my trouble were afterward used against Miss Sullivan, the only person of all the kind friends I had there, who could make the crooked straight and the rough places smooth.
对我而言，在课堂上求解物理题，进行代数和几何运算都是必须要掌握的技能。起初我无法顺利地学习这些知识，直到我们购置了一台盲文书写器。通过这台机器，我可以把自己的工作进程记录下来。我无法看到那些画在黑板上的几何图形，我获取形象认识的唯一手段，就是以一个靠垫做依托，再把几何图形用或直或弯的细铁丝拼接出来。我不得不在脑海中描摹这些图形。正如凯斯先生在他的报告中所说的那样，我不但要抓住图形的形状，还要进行假设、演算和推理论证。一言以蔽之，每一个环节都是一种障碍。有时候我感到勇气尽失，而且脾气恶劣，我的坏脾气甚至指向了苏立文小姐，而在我所有的良师益友当中，她是唯一一个能抚平我内心伤痛的人，她能够“将曲线捋直，令崎岖之地变成坦途”。
Little by little, however, my difficulties began to disappear. The embossed books and other apparatus arrived, and I threw myself into the work with renewed confidence. Algebra and geometry were the only studies that continued to defy my efforts to comprehend them. As I have said before, I had no aptitude for mathematics; the different points were not explained to me as fully as I wished. The geometrical diagrams were particularly vexing because I could not see the relation of the different parts to one another, even on the cushion. It was not until Mr. Keith taught me that I had a clear idea of mathematics.
渐渐地，我的困难开始消失了。随着凸版书籍和一些辅助用具的增添，我带着重拾的信心重新投入到学习之中。代数和几何这两门课程仍在继续同我的努力相抗衡。正如我以前说过的那样，我天生缺乏数学头脑，对不同的点面关系总是不能很好地理解。那些几何图形很是令人头痛，因为我无法看到不同图形之间的关系，即使在垫子上摆放也不行。直到凯斯先生教了我一些数学知识之后，我才踏进了几何学的门槛。
I was beginning to overcome these difficulties when an event occurred which changed everything.
正当我开始克服种种困难的时候，随后发生的一件事改变了一切。