For some reason, incessantly while the first 18, 19 years of my life, the future me was much happier, much successful than the present me.
So, I was like, alright fine, so I was forcing myself.
As I promised, I started preparing for civil services examination and I was forcing myself to slog, but I was bored.
UPSC exams were still far away.
In the meantime, I thought of doing theatre and I thought to learn dance because to counter the shyness that I had, still have, and also because there were no girls in my engineering college for some reason.
I felt cheated man, we slogged so much, you cracked your entrance exam, and you find that there are no girls.
So, somebody told me that there are very good-looking girls in dance schools.
So, I was like, fine, I enrolled.
And once I started with performing arts, I knew one thing for sure, I knew that I quite liked it.
And three years later, imagine me sitting in the campus and I'm thinking, alright, I'm really interested in performing arts.
And all I want to do is to earn money and to be recognized.
So, if I become a movie star, hmm, I actually was very serious.
And I dropped out of my College in the third year, when I was just two semesters away from getting the degree, engineering degree.
Came to Mumbai, got heavily into theatre and also the skills that I thought were necessary to become an actor.
And by the way, this time I stayed with six other guys in a single room kitchen.
But this time I was prepared for it.
This time, there was one difference, I was driven.
My self-respect was at stake.
My ex-college mates, one of them is sitting right here in the black shirt.
They thought that I was that disaster that folks in engineering and B schools should never become.
So, I had to prove a point to everybody.
I had to prove a point to my family.
Most importantly, I had to prove a point to myself.
And this was the time when I was also a background dancer.
So, I was dancing behind all the possible stars that you can think of, Shahrukh Khan, Shaheed Kapoor, everybody.
And I was thinking, I was thinking to myself while I was performing, okay, it's just three steps away, there I have to get, and everything will be sorted.
And I kept going like that.