Can I ask you something?
Have you ever...
thought about what your life would be like
if your dad had been around
when you were, like, six or seven?
Dumb question. I shouldn't have asked that.
No. No, it wasn't dumb.
Yeah. When I was young, I... I looked for him everywhere.
In the streets, in stores.
I even looked for him in my sleep.
But when I was about 13, I just stopped.
I guess I was just tired of...
using all that energy, ya know.
I just needed to focus on me.
And I'm totally fine with the way things turned out.
I'd be lying if I said there weren't days
that I wish I could replace the guy I made up in my head
with a real person.
I looked for him everywhere.我满世界找他
You can look for the book in the library catalog.
I guess I was just tired of...using all that energy, ya know.我猜我只是厌倦了精疲力竭的感觉
be tired of:厌倦, 不耐烦
He was tired of running errands for his sister.
I just needed to focus on me.我应该更关注我自己
The noise made it hard for me to focus on work.
And I'm totally fine with the way things turned out.而后来事情的发展我也全盘接受了
They could not have foreseen how things would turn out.
I'm sure it will turn out a futile attempt.