It is still not definitely known who shot me, but a man named Ataullah Khan said he did it.
我们依旧无法完全确定是谁对我开了枪，但有一名叫作阿陶拉·汗的男子说是他下的手。
The police have not managed to find him but they say they are investigating and want to interview me.
警方还没有找到他，但他们说正在着手调查，并希望能有机会跟我沟通。
Though I don't remember exactly what happened that day, sometimes I have flashbacks. They come unexpectedly.
虽然我并不完全记得那天究竟发生了什么事，但有时，我会忽然陷入当时的情境。我无法预知这种情形何时出现。
The worst one was in June, when we were in Abu Dhabi on the way to perform Umrah in Saudi Arabia.
最糟的一次发生在6月，我们当时在阿布扎比，正在前往沙特阿拉伯进行副朝（原文为Umrah。根据伊斯兰教法规定，凡穆斯林均需于规定的期间，也就是伊斯兰教教历12月8日至12月12日，前往圣城麦加朝圣，此称为“正朝”。而在此期间之外若前往麦加朝觐，则称为“副朝”。）的路上。
I went to a shopping mall with my mother as she wanted to buy a special burqa to pray in Mecca.
我和母亲一起来到购物中心，因为她想买一件专用的罩袍，穿上它在麦加做礼拜。
I didn't want one. I said I would just wear my shawl as it is not specified that a woman must wear a burqa.
我不想买。我说我会戴着我的披巾，因为教义中并没有特别规定女性一定要穿罩袍。
As we were walking through the mall, suddenly I could see so many men around me.
当我们在购物中心穿行时，我忽然看见许多男人环绕在我的身旁。
I thought they were waiting for me with guns and would shoot.
我以为他们身上都带着枪，一见我出现就会开枪。
I was terrified though I said nothing.
我很害怕，但我什么都没说。
I told myself, Malala, you have already faced death.
我告诉自己：马拉拉，你已经跟死亡正面交过手了。
This is your second life.
这是你的第二条命。
Don't be afraid – if you are afraid you can't move forward.
不要怕——如果你害怕，你就会无法继续走下去。