Ah, I am discontented, discontented! I see plainly that my father is out of humor, and would like to tell me so; but he is sorry, and he is still waiting. My dear father, who works so hard! All is yours, all that I see around me in the house, all that I touch, all that I wear and eat, all that affords me instruction and diversion,--all is the fruit of your toil, and I do not work; all has cost you thought, privations, trouble, effort; and I make no effort. Ah, no; this is too unjust, and causes me too much pain. I will begin this very day; I will apply myself to my studies, like Stardi, with clenched fists and set teeth. I will set about it with all the strength of my will and my heart. I will conquer my drowsiness in the evening, I will come down promptly in the morning, I will cudgel my brains without ceasing, I will chastise my laziness without mercy. I will toil, suffer, even to the extent of making myself ill; but I will put a stop, once for all, to this languishing and tiresome life, which is degrading me and causing sorrow to others. Courage! to work! To work with all my soul, and all my nerves! To work, which will restore to me sweet repose, pleasing games, cheerful meals! To work, which will give me back again the kindly smile of my teacher, the blessed kiss of my father!
想起来真是可耻！啊！我自己既没趣，父亲对我也不欢喜。父亲原要责骂我，不过因为爱我，所以忍住了！父亲一直劳动辛苦到现在，家里的东西，哪一件不是父亲的力换来的？我所用的、穿的、吃的和教我的、使我快活的种种事物，都是父亲劳动的结果。我却一事不做，只让父亲在那里操心劳力，从未给他丝毫的帮助。啊！不对，这真是不对！这样子不能使我快乐！就从今日起吧！像斯带地那样地捏紧了拳咬了牙齿用功吧！拼了命，夜深也不打呵欠，天明就跳起床来吧！不绝地把头脑锻炼，真实地把情性革除吧！劳动吧！辛苦吧！就是病了也不要紧。像现在这样，自己既苦，别人也难过，这种倦怠的生活决计从今日起停止！劳动！劳动！以全心全力用功，拼了命！这样才能得到游戏的愉快和食事的快乐，才能得到先生的亲切的微笑和父亲的亲爱的亲吻。