CHAPTER XXXVI

第三十六章

THE daylight came. I rose at dawn.

白昼来临，拂晓时我便起身了。

I busied myself for an hour or two with arranging my things in my chamber, drawers, and wardrobe,

我忙了一两个小时，把房间、抽屉和衣橱里的东西作了安排。

in the order wherein I should wish to leave them during a brief absence.

根据短期外出的需要，

Meantime, I heard St. John quit his room.

与此同时，我听到圣·约翰离开了房间，

He stopped at my door: I feared he would knock -- no, but a slip of paper was passed under the door.

在我房门外停了一下，我担心他会敲门——不，他没有敲，却从门底下塞进来一个纸条，

I took it up. It bore these words --

我拿起来一看，只见上面写着：

"You left me too suddenly last night.

“咋晚你离开我太突然了。

Had you stayed but a little longer, you would have laid your hand on the Christian's cross and the angel's crown.

要是你再呆一会儿，你就会把手放在基督的十字架和天使的皇冠上了。

I shall expect your clear decision when I return this day fortnight.

二周后的今天我回来时盼你已作出明确的决定。

Meantime, watch and pray that you enter not into temptation: the spirit, I trust, is willing, but the flesh, I see, is weak.

同时，你要留心并祈祷，愿自己不受诱惑。我相信，灵是愿意的；但我也看到，肉是软弱的。

I shall pray for you hourly. -- Yours, ST. JOHN."

我会时时为你祈祷——你的，圣·约翰。”

"My spirit," I answered mentally,

“我的灵，”我心里回答，

"is willing to do what is right; and my flesh, I hope, is strong enough to accomplish the will of Heaven,

“乐意做一切对的事情，我希望我的肉也很坚强，一旦明确上帝的意志、便有力量去实现它。

when once that will is distinctly known to me.

让我可以去探求——询问——

At any rate, it shall be strong enough to search -- inquire --

无论如何，我的肉体是够坚强的，摸索出路，

to grope an outlet from this cloud of doubt, and find the open day of certainty."

驱散疑云，找到确然无疑的晴空。”

It was the first of June; yet the morning was overcast and chilly: rain beat fast on my casement.

这是六月一日。早晨，满天阴云，凉气袭人，骤雨敲窗。

I heard the front-door open, and St. John pass out.

我听见前门开了，圣·约翰走了出去。

Looking through the window, I saw him traverse the garden.

透过窗子，我看到他走过花园，

He took the way over the misty moors in the direction of Whitcross -- there he would meet the coach.

踏上雾蒙蒙的荒原，朝惠特克劳斯方向走去，——那儿他将搭上马车。